(+) Therapy Session
Yeah I gotta say like a month ago
I was talking to fans
And one of 'em pulled me aside and said
We never met
But I swear that you know who I am
I've been through a lot
I don't know how to express it to people
Don't think that I can
But I got that mansion cd on rotation
That's real for me nate
You do not understand
It's crazy for me
Kids hit me up say they slittin'
They wrists on the daily
This music is more than you think
Don't book me for
Just entertainment it's entertainin'
Hearin' these parents they telling their kids
My music is violent—you gotta be kidding me
I guess that your definition
Of violence and mine
Is something that we look at differently
How do you picture me huh?
Want me to smile you want me to laugh?
You want me to walk on the stage
With a smile on my face
When I'm mad and put on a mask
For real though
I mean what you expect from me?
I'm tryna do this respectfully
They say that life is a race
I knew my problems would prolly
Catch up eventually
I do my best to be calm
How you gon' write me and tell me
You'd slaughter my family?
That's just a glimpse
To the stuff that gets sent to me
These are the parts of my life
They don't never see woo
I am aware it's aggressive
I am not here for acceptance
I don't know what you expected
But what you expect
When you walk in a therapy session huh?
Therapy therapy session
Therapy therapy session
This girl at the show looked me in the face
And told me her life's full of drama (yeah)
Said her dad is abusive
Apparently he likes to beat on her mama
I got so angry inside
I wanted to tell her to give me his number
But what you gon' do with it right?
You gon' hit him up then
He'll start hittin' her harder that's real
These kids they come to my shows
With tears in they eyes
Imagine someone looking at you
And sayin' your music's the reason
That they are alive
Sometimes I don't know how to handle it
This type of life isn't glamorous
This ain't an act for the cameras (nah)
You see me walk on these stages
But have no idea
What I'm dealing with after it nah
I put it all in the open
This is the way that I cope with all my emotion
I'm taking pictures with thousands of people
But honestly I feel like nobody knows me
I'm tryin' to deal with depression
I'm tryin' to deal with the pressure
How you gon' tell me
My music does not have a message?
When I'm looking out at this crowd
Full of people I know I affected agh
I got some things in my life
I know I should let 'em go
Let me jot it down
Let me take a mental note
I put it all in this microphone
Think about that for a minute
What is the point of this song?
I'm just venting
But what you expect
From a therapy session huh?
Therapy therapy session
Therapy therapy session
What you think about me
—that doesn't worry me
I know I handle some things immaturely
I know that I need to grow in maturity
I ain't gon' walk on these stages
In front of these people
And act like I live my life perfectly
That doesn't work for me
Christian is not the definition of
What perfect means
I ain't the type to be quiet
I ain't gon' sit here in silence
If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
Then I promise you I wouldn't say it in private
I am not lyin'
People go off on my page
And I'm tryin' to quit the replyin'
But this is ridiculous
I'm passionate man
I really mean what I'm writing
You want me to keep it a hundred?
Okay I'll keep it a hundred
I see a whole lot of talkin' on socials
But honestly I don't see nothing in public
I kinda love it yeah
Why don't you write us some happy raps?
That would be awesome
All of your music is moody and dark nate
—don't get me started (yeah)
You wanna know what it's like
If you met me in person?
Listen to my verses
This music is not just for people
Who sit in the pews
And pray at the churches nah
I won't reject it
I don't expect everyone to respect it
I don't expect you to get my perspective
But what you expect from a therapy session?
Huh?
I mean I think sometimes people
They confuse what I'm doin'
I write about life I write about things
That I'm actually dealing with
Something that I'm actually experiencing
This is real for me
Like this is something
That personally helps me as well
I'm not confused about who gave me the gift
God gave me the gift and he gave me
The ability to—to do this
And he also gave me this as an outlet
And that's what music is for me
When I feel something whether it's anger
Um it's a passion about something
Or frustration
Like this is where I go
This is—this is—that's the whole
Nf real music thing man
This is real for me—i need this
This is a therapy for me