(+) The Decemberists - Here I Dreamt I Was An Architect (Lyrics)
Feels like a close
it's coming to
Fuck am I gonna do
It's too late to start over
This is the only
thing I thing I know
Sometimes I feel like
all I ever do is
Find different ways
to word the same
old song
Ever since I came along
From the day the
song called
Hi My Name Is
dropped Started thinking
my name was fall
Cause anytime things
went wrong
I was the one who they
would blame it on
The media made me the
equivalent of
a modern day Genghis Kahn
Tried to argue it was
only entertainment
dawg Gangsta Naw
courageous balls
Had to change my style
they said I'm way too soft
And I sound like A Z and Nas
out came the claws
And the thing's
been out since then
But up until the instant that
I've been against it
It was ingrained in me that
I wouldn't amount to
a shitstain I thought
No wonder I had to
unlearn everything
that my brain was taught
Do I really belong in this
game I pondered
I just wanna play my part
should I make waves or not
So back and forth
in my brain
the tug of war wages on
And I don't wanna
seem ungrateful
or disrespect the
artform I was raised upon
But sometimes you
gotta take a loss
And have people rub
it in your face
before you get
made pissed off
And keep pluggin'
it's your only outlet
And your only outfit
so you know they gonna
talk about it
Better find a
way to counter it
quick and make it ah
Feel like I've already said
this a kabillion
eighty times
How many times can I say
the same thing different
ways that rhyme
What I really wanna say is
is there anyone else
who can relate to my story
Bet you feel the
same way I felt
when I was in the
same place you are
I was afraid to make
a single sound
when I was afraid to
Afraid I will never find
a way out out out
Afraid I never before
I didn't wanna
go another round
An angry mans power
will shut you up
Trip wires fill this house
with tip toe love
Run out of excuses
with every word
So here I am
and I will not run
Guts over fear
the time is here
Guts over fear
I shall not tear
For all the times I let
you push me around
and let you keep me down
now I Guts over fear
guts over fear
Feels like a close
it's coming to
Fuck am I gonna do
It's too late to start over
This is the only thing
I thing I know
It's like I was there
once single parents
Hate your appearance
did you struggle to
find your place
in this world
And the pain spawns
all the anger on
But it wasn't
until I put the
pain in songs learned
who to aim it on
That I made a spark
started to spit
hard as shit
Learned how to harness it
while the reins were off
And there was
a lot of bizarre shit
but the crazy part
Was soon as I
stopped saying
I gave a fuck
Haters started to
appreciate my art
And it just
breaks my heart
to look at all the pain
I've caused
But what am I gonna do
when the rage is gone
The lights go out
in the trailer park
And the window
that was closing
and there's nowhere else
I can go with flows in
And I'm frozen cause
there's no more emotion for
me to pull from
Just a bunch of
playful songs
that I made for fun
So to the break of
dawn here I go
recycling the
same old song
But I'd rather make
Not Afraid 2 than another
make mothafuckin'
We Made You uh
Now I don't wanna
seem indulgent
when I discuss
my lows and my highs
My demise and my
uprise pray to God
I just opened
enough eyes later on
Gave you the supplies
and the tools
to hopefully use it
to make you strong
And enough to
lift yourself up
when you feel like I felt
Cause I can't
explain to y'all
how dang exhausted
my legs felt
Just having to balance
my damn self
Those dang eggshells
I was made to walk
But thank you ma
'cause that gave me the
Strength to
cause Shady mania
so many empty that stadium
At least I made it
out of that house
and a found a place
in this world
when the day was done
So this is for
every kid who all's
they ever did was dreamt that
one day they would
just get accepted
I represent him or her
or anyone similar
you are the reason
that I made this song
Everything you're scared
to say don't be
afraid to say no more
From this day on forward
just let them a holes talk
Take it with a grain of salt
and eat their
fucking faces off
The legend of the
angry blonde
lives on through
you when I'm gone
And to think I was
I was afraid to make
a single sound
Afraid I will never find
a way out out out
Afraid I never before
I didn't wanna go
another round
An angry mans power
will shut you up
Trip wires fill this
house with tip toe love
Run out of excuses
with every word
So here I am and
I will not run
Guts over fear
the time is here
Guts over fear
I shall not tear
For all the times
I let you push me around
and let you keep me down
now I Guts over fear
guts over fear