K-pop Lyrics

That's it
Looking back now I didn't know
what it was supposed to be
And it's like raising kids man
If you weren't raised you don't know
how to raise you know?
I just did the best
that I could with them because
They know fuckin' well I love them
But I didn't do the best I could
I didn't know what the fuck I was doing
I didn't
I will never forget watching my mother
get put in a straightjacket
And taken out of my home
when I was only seven years old
She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox
and put in a mental institution
Leaving my daddy alone with me
and my little brother Lloyd
I later had an evil stepmother
who further cemented the idea
that I didn't need a mother
Growing up without one
had long lasting influence
I didn't fully understand until much later in life
It bled into my relationships with family
and those I had
became romantically involved with
Whenever I got too close to a woman
I would cut her off
Part of that was vindictive
and partially based on fear
But it was also totally subconsious
Looking back is a bitch isn't it?